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I’m a Gen X nurse.

What does that mean?

In the most obvious sense it just means that I was born in 1970 and I’m a registered nurse. I try not to put too much stock in all of the generational stereotypes, but I have always felt like I was Generation X to the core. Gen Xers tend to be cynical. We’re hard on ourselves and others. We have this reputation for being slackers, not because we’re lazy, but because our standards are too high to just grab whatever old McJob comes our way.

When I graduated from college in 1992, I had a liberal arts degree and no clue what to do with it. I wasn’t interested in graduate school. At that point I was ready for the next step. I wanted to play the game. I wanted to get a paycheck.

The conventional wisdom at the time was to pick a company. (How? Based on what?) Get an entry level position (doing what?) Establish yourself and move up the ranks (to become what, exactly?) It was all so nebulous.

So I got a job in a bakery. I have always loved working with food. It was extremely low-paying but that was okay. I was happy.

I knew it was a dead end job though, so I started taking community college courses. First in psychology (I thought I wanted to be an art therapist) and then in graphic design. Meanwhile I “moved up the ranks” and became a waitress. I started to make a lot more money and it was a job I rather enjoyed.

I did this for 10 years. I travelled a lot. Bought a house. Always in the back of my mind was, “You have a college degree! You should be doing something else!” But that voice was never quite convincing enough.

Then in August of 2001, I attended the funeral of a close friend’s brother. He was a young, wonderful, hard working person who was ruthlessly killed by a drunk driver. Nothing like a funeral for a young person to send you into an existential tailspin.

I fell into a temporary despair. I desperately tried to come up with ideas for what I should be doing different, how to change my life.

And then September 11th happened. Despair turned into anger, followed by numbness. My existential tailspin was curtailed by the need to just go on living. To try and make sense of day to day things without being overcome by rage. I thought about joining the military.

8 months later I made the decision to start nursing school.

Sometimes it takes a tragedy to make you see what’s really important. And the important thing for me was to do something that I could define, something that had meaning, and something I could take pride in. Sure I could pay my dues and work for a company, sell things, market things, design things, manage things, get promoted. But nursing is different. It’s so much more simpler:

What does a nurse do?

She takes care of people when they are sick. And gets paid for it.

And that’s why despite all the bitching and moaning I like to do about cleaning up poop, I’ll probably always be a nurse.

Here’s a diagram of post-procedural patient flow that I made, because that’s just the kind of geeky nurse that I am:

As you can see, I recover radiology patients and cardiology patients.

So what do you call a radiology patient that has an acute MI in my recovery room?

DAMNED LUCKY!!!

I had written a long, finely crafted post to tell you this story, but then I read Phil Baumann’s post on HIPAA and I remembered exactly why I typically do not blog about patient encounters.

So here’s the Cliff Notes version, scrubbed of details:

(imagine the following paragraph being recited by an auctioneer)

“You just had a radiology procedure done and you’re lying in the recovery room after your procedure when OUCH! you’re having chest pain and the 12 lead was done and HEY! the cardiologist happens to be right here and OHHH! there happens to be a clean procedure room so we are going to cath you now and LOOK! there’s a complete blockage of one of your coronary arteries and you could have died but we just stented it and now you’re stable so it’s off to the CCU don’t let the door hit your behind on the way out. ADIOS. And don’t forget to tell your family to rub the toe of the Jesus statue.”

Several people came up to me afterward and said, “How does it feel? You saved a life today?” And I said, “I can’t possibly take credit. It was the whole team, and a good bit of karma, all working together.”

I still felt spectacular, though, because I was a part of the team that saved a life.

And that’s why it’s good to be a nurse. ( :